Last week I took part in a Bachata bootcamp in the Singapore International Latin Festival. The catch here was that we had to perform after the bootcamp.
That was scary
but I thought it would be a good push factor.
I was looking forward to the bootcamp because I have loved this dance form for a long time now and
I have finally took the leap of courage
to learn it properly. I went to the first training session, eager to absorb whatever techniques the instructors were going to teach.
Strange enough, we went straight into learning the performance choreography right after our warm up. I was confused. Slowly but surely, the truth crept up on me. It hit me like a ton of bricks. There was no teaching in the bootcamp. It was strictly only preparation for the performance.
My blood went cold.
My second confusion was regarding the standard of the dance steps. These were not beginner’s steps. There was no way a beginner will be able to cope with it. In fact, one husband and wife couple backed out immediately on the first day.
The second truth dawned on me. This was NOT a beginner’s bootcamp. Oh. My. Goddess.
What have I done?!
I did my best to stay calm and tried desperately to remember the steps. The song was fast and the steps were never repeated. It was a serious dance item.
We learnt half the song in our first session. We only had three sessions with our instructors and then its performance time.
Sheer insanity had just invaded my life.
We had three hours in the first session to learn half the song, two hours next to learn the second half, followed by one hour of stage rehearsal. And then it’s showtime.
I am no longer sure what to do with myself.
I stumbled home on the first night. Physically exhausted, brain dead and still in a state of shock. I was trying to process what had just transpired.
This, was a very bad mistake.
How am I ever going to survive this?
I felt so tortured in my mind, swinging back and fro, as to whether I have what it takes to do this. To perform a dance item, which was above my current abilities, in front of mostly trained eyes in latin dance, was not something I was relishing to do.
But here I am in this bootcamp. In fact, the countdown had started ticking.
How am I going to rectify this mistake?
With fear and doubt in my heart, I planned a strategy.
I was going to look at the instructional video for the next few days, right before I sleep and first thing in the morning when I wake.
Also, I am going to practise for an hour by myself everyday before I go for group practice. That’s a total of three hours private practice. Not a lot but
hopefully it can make a difference.
I stuck very closely to that strategy. It was still a tedious, uphill task. My body was not used to this dance form at all and some parts of the choreography are very similar. I had to make sure I don’t get confused.
But I was confused.
During the final rehearsal, it was decided that my partner and I would be standing in the front line.
The stakes just kept piling up!
I felt slightly better with every training session, but never better enough to feel that I have nailed it. On top of it, I was going for workshops, that were conducted in the latin festival. It was exhausting. My feet hurt and my big toes threatened to fall off.
During the final stage rehearsal, I learnt that I was doing one of the turns the wrong way. Oh. My. Goddess. It was going to be very obvious if I don’t turn the same way with the rest, especially with me standing in front. My body does not remember it that way. I just somehow have to remember it.
I will and I must!
Worried and panicky, I rushed home to take a shower and rushed back to do my make up and hair. We were the second item for the night, we did not have much time at all.
In the back stage, looking out to the audience,
my stomach felt like it had been stabbed.
This is it Joy. This is it.
Come what may. And it came. It wasn’t the best performance of my life. I forgot some small parts but it wouldn’t be obvious unless you are a Bachata dancer yourself. I clearly had no sense of the dance form. I never did.
But I did it.
It was done.
As we walked off the stage, my tears welled up quickly. The sheer pressure from the last few days had manifested itself in my eyes. Oh. My. Goddess. For whatever it was worth, I did it.
I did it! I survived it!
I went from considering this bootcamp
a terrible mistake to thinking how wonderful it is,
that I had no clue that this is not a beginner’s bootcamp when I signed up. That was the only way I would be willing to sign up!
I felt like a stone being refined by the fire. It had been so painful but
I came out sparkling and proud,
like a diamond in the rough.
I don’t feel the same. I am not the same.
I made a mistake and
I glowed as a result of it.
Today, I am walking around as a fuller version of myself, humbled and inspired by myself. I was reminded of how much potential I had when I am
willing to get very uncomfortable and
out of my comfort zone.
What have you been waiting to do but have always made excuses?
Nothing is a guarantee. But nothing happens if you don’t take take that leap of faith. I am not saying that it is going to be easy, but it is going to be so worth it.
Don’t be afraid of mistakes, they are your allies.
With your faith and perseverance, they will help you to shine like diamonds in the sky.
Dear diamond in the rough,
it’s time to walk into the refining fire.
See you in the sky.
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