Having been doing AFT sessions for others, I instinctively felt it was time to do an AFT for myself again.
AFT is a relatively new modality for many people so I understand there is probably a lot of curiosity and perhaps, even hesitation about it. Hence it might be insightful to give you a glimpse of the AFT session that I did today.
Given that it is a private AFT session for myself, I will not be revealing all my dark secrets (LOL!) but definitely enough for you to have a concrete and intimate peek at the process and what the client might be experiencing, in varying degrees and forms.
I began my AFT session with a positive affirmation made in the present tense. When I rated how possible it felt in the moment, it was a very low 2. 2/10.
The negative voice was telling me,”You are a joker. How is that possible?”
I felt a sense of heartache. I felt hurt. It was residing around my heart area. There was a rising sensation of nausea at the back of my throat.
Digging back into my past, I recalled an incident involving one of my earliest boyfriend. It was about fifteen years ago and I found out something about him that totally broke my heart.
The memory took me off guard. Using Memory Release Blend from Young Living Essential Oils (YL), I rubbed the oils in my palms and inhaled in deeply. I felt an urge to ‘lean on’ the oils for some refuge.
I was certainly not expecting it but in a few minutes, quiet tears were welling up. Before I knew it, tears were streaking my face. A gentle wave of hurt sensation were coming up. I started to feel an ache in my stomach too. I allowed myself to cry and to feel it all.
As I continued to breath in the oils, gradually the memory and the hurt feeling faded. A new thought came to my mind. ‘I can do this.’
Looking back at my affirmation, I rated it again. This time it was 3/10. Nothing spectacular, just one notch up. Pushing on. I felt the negative voice leering at me,”Haha. Ya right. you are a liar.”
Anger shot up in my heart. I can feel it in my chest area. And my face has tensed up. Traveling through time to find a time where I felt the same anger in my heart, an angry episode from last night quickly ride up. It was an incident where I was accused and judged, without any chance for clarification.
Using the Belief Blend from Young Living (YL), I inhaled deeply focused on the feeling, the bodily sensation and the angry memory. It took a while but eventually, I felt the intensity of the anger reduced. Something in my mind said,”You do not need to let other people’s rage affect you.” Hmmm…
Revisiting my affirmation, I gave it a score again. 4/10. Clearly a process of baby steps. Moving forward. The negative voice retorted,”Give it up Joy. This is hopeless.”
I felt despair hearing those words. That feeling moved around my neck and throat area. Doing time travel again, I remember a time when I felt the same. It was a few years ago when I felt trapped in a relationship with truth stuck in my throat.
Going back to Memory Release Blend, I inhaled it all in. Tears came again. My heart ached. And then it all faded, the despair in my throat, the ache in my heart, like a faraway dream.
A new glimpse of hope came to my mind. It said “It’s (the incident) all over now.”
Glancing at my affirmation again, this time it felt like a 5/10. Another gentle step up the ladder. The negative voice said,”Alright. Be that way.” I sensed determination rising up to my heart.
I remembered feeling the same way, when I first started my pole dancing studio in 2005. Sheer determination. Belief Blend felt like the perfect partner in crime for this moment.
Inhaling deeply increased my sense of determination. My mind perked up. “I have done this before. I can do it again. I will survive and thrive this.” Woohoo! I am feeling very good right now, that much is for sure!
Giving my affirmation a final rating, it is now a 6/10. It went from 2/10 – 3/10 – 4/10 – 5/10 and is now a 6/10. Wonderful!
As I meditated on my affirmation, I realized that it has morphed into another affirmation, – ‘I am resourceful, powerful, intuitive and abundant.’ I wrote down my new ally.
I have decided that the perfect power pose for this powerful new affirmation has got to be the yoga warrior pose. I inhaled in Transformation Blend from YL and went into my power pose, verbalizing my affirmation with conviction. I did that twenty times.
I always enjoy feeling a firm shift when I start saying it on the eleventh time onwards.
Sitting back down with a new vigor, I decided on the inspired action I will take moving forward. I shall not be too ambitious and I will just do this one task moving forward for the next five days and evaluate my progress.
That was the experience of my AFT process this afternoon. I hope you had found it insightful. Of course, it will vary from individual/affirmation to individual/affirmation.
I am feeling a little fragile, given the unexpected ride of emotions from unhappy incidents from the past. Wow, I didn’t know they still affected me.
This is what I love about AFT, it brings out negative thoughts, feelings and memories from the past, that has not yet been processed. They continue to affect you everyday, like a silent cancer.
Now that I have processed these memories, I feel uplifted too and eager to complete the task that I have set out to do.
- Have you tried AFT yet?
- Are there memories and feelings, that you have carried with you for years and years?
That is too exhausting dear one. Let it go. Try an AFT session.
What do you have to lose? LOTS!
All the negative vibrations!!! LOL ;p
Be kind to yourself today.
P.s. Do note that Young Living oils have been recommended by Dr Perkus for the AFT process.
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